I have felt strangely uninspired in recent weeks. That’s unusual for me, as my mind is usually full of lots of fresh ideas every day. My blogging is normally a natural expression of those ideas as I tend to simply blog what’s on my mind. But in recent weeks I’ve found I have little to say. So what’s going on? As I’ve wracked my brain and searched my soul I’ve come up with some possible reasons why.
Perhaps I’m tired. Yes. I have been tired. So I’ve been trying to pace myself and catch up on sleep.
Perhaps I’m just too busy and my mind is so full of activity that it crushes my creativity. Yes. That could be true. My diary is particularly full at the moment and won’t be properly alleviated until we sort out certain staffing issues.
Perhaps I’m ill. Yes. That could be it. I had my jabs a few weeks ago in preparation for going to Burundi with Alpha in June. People often find the Yellow Fever jab has some physical and mental side-effects. It could be that.
Perhaps I’m not listening to the Holy Spirit. Possibly. Whilst there have been a few situations I’ve been in recently where I might have been a little less attentive than usual, in general God has not felt distant. I am still seeking to be prayerful through the day. I am praying and reading the Scriptures each morning. I am seeking to be disciplined and regularly worship my wonderful gracious God.
Perhaps I’ve been influenced by the some of the pastoral issues around. Maybe. Some are ill and despite prayer and medical help don’t seem to be improving. Some are under financial pressure, being made redundant, uncertain about the future. I have friends whose marriages are failing and no advice from me or others seems to make any difference. When that happens to people very close to you, it can rub off. So maybe there’s something there.
Perhaps I am being oppressed by the enemy. Perhaps. I wouldn’t rule that out. The bible tells us we’re in a battle. Satan doesn’t want us to be effective or make a difference in the lives of others. So that is possible. But I have faithful people around me praying for me, for which I am so grateful. And I know the Lord gives his armour, so that we don’t need to fall but stand strong in the battles of life.
Perhaps it’s a combination of these things. Or maybe I’m just going through a season of feeling uninspired. Simple as that. There’s no particular reason. It’s just how it is. Maybe.
I guess whatever the reason, what I need to do is to keep on going, doing the basics well. I need to stay close to the Lord. I need to keep loving my wife and children and family. I need to kindly, carefully and diligently do the work I’ve been called to. I need to rest and relax. And find joy in the journey of life.
I was at a training day for clergy on Thursday with Martin Wallace, the Bishop of Selby, and he was reminding us that in the midst of all we do we need to make sure we are laughing and praying and reading. He was encouraging us to hang in there, keep going and enjoy being you, doing what God has called you to do. And that’s a message we all need to hear.
So, inspired or not, that’s what I’m seeking to do. I know there is power in perseverance, even when you feel uninspired. That’s why on many many occasions we are told in the bible to endure, to keep going and to persevere – like in Galatians 6:9: ‘Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.’ Maybe that’s all the inspiration I need.